Any of you who know me knows that I’m never up early in the morning. I woke up about 4:00 a.m. Monday morning to check on our kitty cat and she had passed away. For this, I am so very thankful to God. She went peacefully, at home, and with us.
I’ve never, ever understood how someone could put an animal – a member of the family – to sleep. Although I’ve read so many things about folks doing this, it was always something I felt I would never consider. I read that pet owners say “you just know” when you have to do it. Now, I truly understand how someone could come to that conclusion.
My heart doesn’t feel heavy about her now. Although I’m sad and broken in spirit, I feel mended somewhat to know that she’s not suffering. We knew that she was hanging on for us and we knew she suffered for it.
It’ll be hard to deal with her not being around after so many years and I already miss her. Anyway, for any of you who might have read my entry on Sunday and helped us pray for her, I thank you for listening to my thoughts and for caring.
Thought you might like to see a picture of her. This was taken a few months ago when she was feeling great and high on catnip! She’s lying on our floor exhausted staring at her catnip ball. We had soooooo much fun with catnip and that little kitty cat!
This is going to be a sad entry, but I read somewhere it was a good idea to write things out when things are bad in your life. Somehow it’s a form of therapy…so here goes.
Tonight I write this wish such a heavy heart. It seems as though my husband and I are about to lose our sweet little angel kitty cat. She’s been with us as long as he and I have been together and she was with him long before that. She’s 19 years old, which is a LONG life for a cat, I know. Back around Thanksgiving, she showed the first sign of trouble with some neurological problems and walking in circles. A visit to the vet took care of that and she was better until January. January found her retinas becoming detached and she became completely blind. Then, she started experiencing cycles of rapid breathing. Another visit to the vet and some near death spells, we thought she was getting better. Until yesterday afternoon. Since that time she has been in a cycle of walking into things and she has now, done the worst…quit eating and drinking. Our little girl isn’t herself and is just lying down kicking her feet now. So, from everything we’ve read, we have to have her put to sleep because without eating and drinking, she will be in tremendous pain. Supposedly, it is the kindest thing we can do for her. Tears fill my eyes as I try to type this all out. My head feels like it weighs a ton. We were up almost all night last night with her. So, basically, we have had little sleep and we’ve cried off and on (mostly on). Though we know it’s the end of her life here with us, we hurt for her and for our loss.
I’ll tell you a little bit about her….
Her name is China and she’s part Blue Himalayan and part Siamese. She is a BEAUTIFUL GORGEOUS long haired cat with the sweetest disposition you have ever seen in a cat. Anytime since I’ve known her, she’s always been there for me. When I’ve been sick with the flu or some other illness, she sensed it and would get on the bed with me and snuggle up close to me. That little girl always made me feel better because she cared so much. Anytime I have been sad, she comforts me. When I come home, she’s at the door waiting. If I’m sitting somewhere, she wants to be what we call our “lap kitty”.
Now, I write this with her lying on her side consistently moving her little paws back and forth in a repetitive motion like she’s walking or swimming. I cannot stand to think that this time tomorrow night, she won’t be here. It’s absolutely breaking my heart.
Maybe it’s worse because we don’t have children. It’s just always been the three of us. Anyway, I can’t tell you how many times I’ve broken down during this post and I really don’t know whether or not it helped me to write about it. At any rate, thanks for listening and I’m sorry to write such a depressing and painful post.
The excitement is filling the air around here as I’m getting everything ready to launch the shop. I finally have a date set for the shop launch – April 5th!! YAY! I’ve been such a busy bee getting things made and tested. Nothing will be sold in my shop unless it has been tried and tested by myself and my hubby first. So, if we don’t think it’s up to par, you won’t find it in the shop.
So, this week, this is what I’ve done:
Started this blog
Opened my etsy shop
Reserved the same name on ebay to avoid any confusion
Went to the bank and opened a business checking account
Purchased a few items to gather some feedback on my new etsy account
Opened a PayPal account
Reserved a website
Completed the banner for this blog & etsy (with my hubby’s help – he’s brilliant!)
Have decided what to do for the avatar, but I have to make part of it first
Made a test potholder with heat resistant fabric inside
Written down pages and pages of things I’ll have in the shop, along with so many ideas of things to come
Finalized my packaging ideas for mailing my goods
Ordered my custom labels which will be sewn into my wares
WHEW! It’s been a busy week and there’s still so much more to do. I’m so very excited about this and I have high hopes for my new little corner of the world. My hope is that you will be excited about the end result, too!
For a while, I’ve been trying to come up with a great name for my home-based business. I made so many lists mainly of things I loved and I continued creating this list until I had the perfect name…
The Cozy Loft.
Doesn’t that just sound heavenly? I feel all warm and fuzzy every time I think about it.
In the weeks and months to come, I will be building this shop through Etsy – my favorite place on the web.
Although anyone could purchase my things, they are targeted to couples and single guys & gals. Or really those of us who live in cottages, apartments (a la Paris-style), lofts, smaller homes – all those cozy places.
For items I’ll be making:
I am going to be using only the B-E-S-T quality materials. I am a firm believer in quality and I only want the best.
Items will be unique and individualized with character and charm.
My things will be affordable. Nice enough to give as a gift to the most persnickety of friends, but cost-effective too.
I realize that it’s difficult to find quality in a world built on quantity – or at least most of it seems that way. My plan is to give back the quality and remind others that handmade items really are not only better, but they are extremely special…as they all come from the heart.